what's your only hope?

put another layer on
that form you call yourself
flesh is all you have to show
and don't it look like hell
feelin high like a drug
but you're closer to the earth
stop looking down to build yourself up
proclaim shit, don't tame it
these lies are like poison, seeping in my veins
like a disease, spreading across the lands
you're only half of what you say you are
and everything they dont
What's your only hope?

maybe one day

this is a bit choppy & maybe not clear to you, but I just hope it comes across how i meant it one of these days [it's about my little sister]...

I see nothing of me in you
maybe that's a good start
it's a different situation your life is seeking out
a love of slight naivity, and really only three
you see i just don't count,
that's how it's come to be
i wish i could be more
but I will never be like mine, or even there
your beauty is deep and visible
radiating like the sun, your smile is pure joy
you've yet to become a jaded soul, I pray you never do
Circumstances shape you, this i have come to know
I hope you break out and see there is more
You have many years to learn for yourself
do not just accept a concept, test them for more than the surface reflection
it's not about appearance, it's about your soul
The act of putting Him before all, love in the most potent form
Only time can tell where we will be,
maybe one day you will see yourself in me (and that will make you happy)

am i caught in the moment

am i caught in the moment, or is the moment caught in me?
a centered mind and free spirit are in constant battle as nature takes its course
Is there a chemical equation for butterflies frolicking inside me when our eyes meet, or thoughts of you play in my mind?
Nevertheless I have no need of it.
Nor of time; for what matter of seconds add up to when passion and comfort so effortlessly intertwine.
my body yearns for yours, to end in a restful slumber.
Where did this creature come from that seems to count all reserves irrelevant?
Am I simply caught in a beautiful moment, or is the moment, for only a moment, caught in me?

lust

so i just lie those pretty lies
and i'd never compromise
i want you more each day
please don't ever go away
i feel alive
when i look into your eyes
your body gives me heat
it's electric when we meet
you sink down in your chair
run fingers through my hair
i wonder how it came to this
i think about that kiss
that sly smile across his lips
a firm grasp upon my hips
i bat my eyes right back
as temptation takes its hack
his touch awakens me, sending chills down my spine
as we intertwine
once again our bodies meet
tangled in this soft sheet
the morning light comes so quick
blazing down on this trick
we part once more
yet never settle the score
the smoldering coals
of two lost souls

this taste is bittersweet

so i wrote back in highschool. It's my favorite because it was the first real escape I felt from writing:

Your lies are like liquor.

You pour, and take with no reserves.

They burn my throat, but the feelings over ride that.

You are intoxicating.

I'm powerless, I can't say no to you.

When you are away I am so strong, but you make me weak.

I learned from our past, my longing for you has faded away.

Now you're here.

My heart beats so loud I can't hear myself think [the warnings].

One look from you and my strength is gone.

The touch of your hand suffocates my inhibitions.

I'm no longer seasoned.

Desire runs through my veins.

I'm that naive girl once more.

This crisp, cool night is like a dream, finally coming true.

I drift to sleep after praying this would never end.

You and Me, forever, amen.

Dawn comes with a hangover from hell.

The buzz is gone, and I realize it was the same 'ole you.

I question if our love is true.

For love keeps no records of wrong, but ours is far too long.

The words you said creep back up my throat. My brain throbs as I feel the pain of stupidity.

I hope this time is different, for my dignities sake.

I sit and wonder what the future holds, hoping the past doesn't repeat repeat repeat itself.

Our history is scattered. but deep.

Only time can tell if the fairytale will come true.

I can't let us go, but it hurts to hang on.

You were my first, I just want to be you last.

This taste is bittersweet.